It’s been a couple days and I’ve been home recouperating and recovering from the biopsy. The biopsy went well so they tell me. We should have some results in 4-5 days. I’ve been having some double vision and unsteadiness walking. I have a cane that is allowing me to get around easier. This is normal according to Dr Google. I have what is called dilopia. Each passing day seems to leave me in a better physical condition. I’ve been doing more on my own, trying not to rely on my family as much with getting around the house. The first day home was a bit trying. My cats have been my little medical assistants checking on me then leaving me to rest. They’ll come in and make sure I’m ok and then they leave.
It’s Easter Sunday. I sit here reflecting on the past few days and I find myself with a sense of gratitude for my family helping me. My wife has been a rockstar attending to me and my needs. My mom came up and hung out with me yesterday. My in laws have been amazing helping me and just being there with me for support and well wishes. My mom brought up some frozen mini quiche and I had that for breakfast today. It gave me a nice feeling to cook for myself. Little things like just making myself some breakfast help me with self confidence.
When I was in the hospital for the biopsy procedure, there was this big brother overseer robot in the room… I didn’t appreciate that one bit. In fact I hated the watchful eye over me. I understand the purpose of it but there was zero privacy with it. I couldn’t get out of bed so using the urinal in the room with this thing…I felt like it and whoever was on the other side was watching me. I kept calling it a robot perv lol I had to remind myself multiple times of their code of conduct. I didn’t want to get kicked out of the hospital for my own feelings of being watched. But at the same time, how would you feel if your every move was watched by some faceless being on the otherside of a device? I would then page the nurse to unplug it and remove it from the room when I had to relieve myself. 24/7 monitoring. I told my wife if we had to have a private conversation I would then just text her. It was ANNOYING!
I flipped this thing off multiple times haha.
All in all I feel each passing day brings me some more strength and normalcy. I’m finding more confidence each day.
Today a physical therapist is coming to the house to do what I have no idea. My wife made me laugh when she said PT on Easter Sunday?! Yesterday I placed an Instacart order for some fresh fruits and snacks for the week. I haven’t had any frosted flakes in ages so I figured what the heck why not? I know I’ve gained a few pounds with the steroid meds but I need some comfort foods and I’m excited to have some what we call chunk doggin foods. I feel kinda gross not showering the last couple days but I got some no rinse bath wipes from Amazon til I gain more stability and feel I can safely shower. I also ordered a shower chair to help with this. My sister in law is preparing an Easter dinner and they said they’d bring me a plate over. I do not think it would be wise for me to venture out just yet being so unsturdy on my feet.
Like I said earlier, my boys have been checking on me intermittenly throughout each day. The little guy, Chip was a bit standoffish at first with the weird hospital smells etc but he has since warmed back up to me and climbs all over me. I love these little furry beasts so much. The big one seems to love knocking my cane over.
Happy Easter everyone. I’m here and doing well. Just gotta get this vision under control. The last couple days have been trying but I am doing well. I felt like I was in two different bodies at the same time. Today I woke up and felt like I was in just one body. It’s a weird feeling but I’m glad that is over with.
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