Today I slept in. 5:30am. Normally I’m up at 5am but my wife let me sleep a bit. I had a nice bm this am lol then on to tooth brushing and breakfast with coffee. It’s good to get the poison out haha. TMI? Sorry, not sorry. My breakfast was delicious. Same old, same old. Egg bites, banana, dry cereal and coffee. It hits the spot.
I checked my email and noticed no invoices came in so I had a relatively light day for work. I spoke with my boss and went over where I’m at with all this. We spoke about my other boss who recently passed from a different type of Brain Cancer. A local publication wrote about him and his business ventures etc. It was really a nice article. I told him about how I am fairing around the house. I also spoke with my assistant today for some store updates etc.
This tumor is in my brain stem as you may remember. It affects my motor function like walking and balance and could lead to breathing and heart issues. More so, I would say since the biopsy, my balance is so much worse, but gaining each day. I am doing more on my own to combat it.
Today, I received two deliveries and my father in law helped me bring them in the house. I put them away myself though. Pushing myself more and getting out of that comfort zone. You have to push to succeed. Keep Pushing! It’s nice not having the PT come today. I can focus on other things and do exercises on my own. I did that today while my in laws were out doing their appointments and shopping. I also watched a bit of 1923, great show. Now I’m typing this blog watching and listening to a show called Government Cheese. It’s ok. I like the lead actor from a different show. Maybe it will pick up.
It also seems like my double vision is getting better. I can focus in on single vision when a screen or whatever is within 18 inches of my face. Anything beyond that distance is double but not as bad as before. The occular exercises from my other Physical Therapy before my diagnosis seem to help strengthen my eyes. I’m not as reliant on the patch up close any more.
The cats have stayed away until grandma and grandpa got home. Then they swarmed me. Now that the afternoon is here they found their way in with me to this room where a sun patch is shining in. They love laying in a sunpatch. It would have been nice to see them earlier in the day but at 4pm, I suppose I’ll take what I can get from them. They seem so tired, must’ve been all that early morning work they did. They certainly didn’t check on me today. Maybe once each. I like a more needy kitty. My old boys, who have long since passed were much more in your face and needy.
Tonight we will have some alfredo chicken pasta and a salad I suppose. We still have some collard greens left from mom. They’re delicious. I like to pop a little yellow mustard on top and eat them that way or toss on some Cholula hot sauce. My fav is with the mustard though. I’m curious how the pasta will be, TikTok has mixed reviews on it. I’ll reserve judgment til I try it myself.
As of late, I’ve been thinking back on simpler times. Driving, working, doing my normal old things. Back when I took a lot for granted. I know this new life is completely different than what I’m used to. Medications, doctor appointments, MRI scans, CT scans, upcoming chemo and radiation. It can be daunting thinking forward. I try to remember what an easy or so called easy life used to be like. I do miss our normal things. But I will say, having a new life like this is not for the weak. You have to stay strong mentally and as much as I can physically. It has brought me closer to my loved ones. I tell them all how appreciative I am of the help I receive. I try not to burden or be a burden with my own stuff. It’s hard, it sucks. Love hard, you don’t know how long you have or what you have til it’s taken away from you. Just a simple task like styling my hair or shaving can make you feel so good. I shave daily but I know I miss some spots.
Keep Pushing, Bruce you will make it out. Push harder each day. Push more, know your limits, Push more. Force yourself to get out of your comfort zone. Don’t let up.
Thank you for stopping by
~Bruce
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