Gazillion Emails Deleted

Today was a slow day so I took it upon myself to give a mindless project. Let’s clean up some old emails. Took me most of the day. I had over 135,000 emails in my gmail account. Delete 50 at a time. Too many new and important medical emails to bulk delete them all. I had to charge my laptop once already. I ate lunch, took in a delivery order. Put that away. Got cleaned up and went back to deleting. Just finished. Click all, delete. Back and forth. Like I said, mindless project but had to be done.

The boys stayed away most of the day. Pancake did his social flops in the kitchen as I’m preparing my lunch. I bent down and pet him. That’s what he wanted. He likes to flop down right in your way. Sometimes it’s a swarming at my feet. Sometimes he headbutts my legs, sometimes he licks my legs. Today was all of the above. Chip has been keeping his distance today except for when the delivery came. He was so nosy looking in the box to see what I ordered. Bananas, chicken, and other things. Nosy little boy. I told him to leave me be and allow me to put things away. He just wanted to inspect everything that came in. Toilet paper, water. Is this so important to you?

Our friend had an MRI yesterday and they found another tumor in her brain. She goes for surgery in June. We are devastated for her. She is the one who came by a few weeks ago and prayed with me. She is the most calming soul I know. She doesn’t deserve this. None of us do. So many people with cancer now. It’s madness. What is this spike increase in cancers lately? I can’t believe how many people myself included have been diagnosed over the past couple years. It’s truly heartbreaking to see it so close to home. We are praying daily, multiple times a day. Is this what life is as you get older? Do we all eventually succumb to this disease? What the actual?

It can be hard to stay positive when everyone you know is coming down with this. It’s nuts. Sorry not sorry. Just venting for myself and others that need the outlet. Madness I tell ya!

I will continue to stay focused and positive. I am starting radiation and chemo Tuesday. I gotta stay focused on this. My nerves are a ball of mess right now. I don’t know how the treatment will affect me. I will cross that bridge when I get to it. I have prepared as much as I can for it. I think I have all the supplies I need.

Thank you for stopping by.
~Bruce